My support system is now completely gone. My friends, family, even my parents have pushed me away and want nothing to do with me anymore. My girlfriend is the only person I feel like might actually be there for me, but I realize how dangerous it is to have only one person has your support. I couldn't do that to her. I couldn't burden her with all my problems. I'm at a loss. I want to die so badly. I have seen several different therapists and have tried many different meds, but none of them have helped, and even the therapists I have seen admit they were stumped. I'm eating healthier, working out, doing all the things I'm "supposed" to do. Nobody wants to listen. Every friggin response I get is "your not trying hard enough" or "ask your doc to change the medicine." And talking to people over the internet like here, no matter how wonderful they may be, can only do so much. I don't trust anyone. I'm sick of all the "your weak" or "go **** yourself if you can't handle life" comments. I'm failing school, and I can't even friggin drive yet due to anxiety problems (Whenever I get behind the wheel my anxiety goes nuts, for whatever reason), so my future is looking very bleak. Even my own D*** dog doesn't want to be around me. I wish I could type this all to a friend, but I have none. I sound like a whiny, complaining little punk. Every single person I have ever tried to open up to, which was very hard to begin with, has pushed me away, telling me they don't want to be around someone who is so "moody". Well I'm sorry. But apparently all my "family" and "friends" forgot how I had been there for them in their worst moments, without judging or pushing away. I thought that's what loved ones do for each other? I guess I was wrong.