I have a split personality disorder. On one side, I am a great person who is caring, loving, sees the beauty in this world and helps a lot of people with their own Pain. But on the other side Im a monster with sociopathic tendencies to manipulate and lie with the intent of unraveling people's sense of reality. In the past few months, Ive done alot to lok away that monster and be just me. But now I realize that someday, something will trigger him to come out again and all my friends will be a target to his hate. Last night, I ried to attempt ending my life so I could keep him away from the people I care about forever, so I couldnt be trapped inside while he runs free destroying all the good things I made in the past few months. I didnt get through with it, or anywhere close. My friends ran all over the building looking for me so they could take me down. They helped me, but now that Im sitting her alone again at night, It's no different. I can't stand this Pain any more, and I cant expect these people to be there for me all the time. I've hurt a lot of people in the past because that evil side was in control, and I will not add to the Pain in this world any further. The Pain caused by my death would be far less than the Pain he could cause should he come out while I'm living. Its a necesarry sacrifice for the greater good. I hate my life for its emptiness, even though it's filled with everyhting i could ever want. Its still void of real happiness. And it has no reason to be.