Well another bad day. I have been suffering from depression for quite some time now. Its very hard for me to open up and talk about it. I try not to show it around my friends and family because I dont want to bring them down.In the past 24 months I have lost my father and father in law, and now my brother in law is very sick. I have my sister and her family living with my husband and I because they have lost everything and cant afford to be on their own. with my own depression and the sadness from all of this, it is becoming overwhelming too me. My gp suggested I see a psychologist but I dont feel I can open up to one.So I feel like it wont help. Sometimes I feel like just going to sleep and not waking up. It gives me a sense of calm when I think of that. Dont know exactly what that means, but I guess its not good. I have read alot of posts and have seen alot of support given.Its nice to know that there are caring people out there Im glad I am here and I wish everyone well !!!!!!