im 22 years old.i can remember being 11 or 12 when i first had thoughts of suicide. i hate myself. i always have. i feel there is no place for me in this world. i`ve never felt that i belonged. im so alone. i get so tired of waking up and wish i didn`t.i feel i will never be pretty enough or smart enough or skinny enough. i feel that i will never be loved. i don`t know what to do.