Hi I'm lot, 17. Yes, I know it sounds very 'teenagerish' that I'm only 17 and registered on a suicide forum. Still, it's serious. I've been suffering from a depression for 3 years now, take meds since a year and still things don't go better. Doctors guess I have borderline. It may explain all the stupid things I've done so far. Well, because there isn't anyone left to help me (I keep on losing ppl), I thouht this forum might be the right place. Finally some people who would understand it all. It's not a matter of 'if'. It's a matter of 'how' and 'when'.