Love is not real

[spellwithashell]

love is an evil made up delusion. True love doesn't exist, love is a horrible feeling. Love makes you do horrible things. And if you can't love anyone because of your broken brain that's even worse. If you're completely incapable of love or being loved you're numb and just want to die. You do things like talk to yourself <mod edit - self harm> and start seeing and hearing things. You can't love anyone because you're crazy. There is more misery and sadness than love in the world, I hate love. I hate anyone who has ever "felt" love or been in love. Because I hate everyone.
Love is fake and only exists in fiction, in imagination and it isn't real. My broken brain and blackened heart will never love or be loved. Love makes people hurt others. Everything makes me sick

 

[may71]

You do things like talk to yourself and cut yourself snd stab yourself, and start seeing and hearing things

Sorry that you're going through this. Is it ok if I ask if you've ever tried getting treatment for this?

 

[spellwithashell]

My parents did not believe me the last time I broke down badly in front of them. I wanted to be hospitalized or given medication

 

[spellwithashell]

Love only exists in fiction, where people are better than you and everything is fake.

 

[Aurelia]

My parents did not believe me the last time I broke down badly in front of them. I wanted to be hospitalized or given medication

Is there any chance you could see a doctor on your own, or take another adult guardian with you besides your parents? Maybe you go to school or college? Is there a school counselor who can refer you to some professional help?

 

[may71]

It sounds like there is a story behind this. If so, you're welcome to tell it if you'd like.

 

[SillyOldBear]

Love is real. I have known couples who were married 70 plus years. Only death parted them. My parents loved each other dearly. You may not have found it, but love is there.

 

[Lifeisthis]

You just got to find the people if you found us supporting you and loving you that means others are out there too!

 

[Shinzon1]

I have personally come to agree with this. Love is a delusion or at least window dressing on some biological impulses.

That said, I don't feel anything about this more then the color of the sky. I would deeply examine whether this is a rationally concluded position or a reflection of a deeper hurt

 

[Lestat]

love is an evil made up delusion. True love doesn't exist, love is a horrible feeling. Love makes you do horrible things. And if you can't love anyone because of your broken brain that's even worse. If you're completely incapable of love or being loved you're numb and just want to die. You do things like talk to yourself <mod edit - self harm> and start seeing and hearing things. You can't love anyone because you're crazy. There is more misery and sadness than love in the world, I hate love. I hate anyone who has ever "felt" love or been in love. Because I hate everyone.
Love is fake and only exists in fiction, in imagination and it isn't real. My broken brain and blackened heart will never love or be loved. Love makes people hurt others. Everything makes me sick

I can relate a lot to many things you said, not all as I don't really self harm, but almost everything else I can.... Yet I guess looking for love is part of being human. As much as I agree and feel these things right now... I feel like a Moth to a flame.

I really hope you do find love and one that is healthy and lasts. I also hope you can find a way to be happy.
Here if you ever need to chat.