What the hell am I doing? Why are u so love sick about her? Why can't I stop thinking about her? Why won't she let me know what she really thinks about me? Why doesn't she admit that she loves me? Why is she so afraid of what other people think? I wish I had the courage to tell her I post here. I wish that we could talk face to face instead of over msn I wish that she would allow me to be her boy friend But we are so differant. She drinks and party's I don't I smoke and she hates smokers She loves sports, I hate sports She's athletic I'm not I sure hope that she doesn't think she owes me, just because I saved her life and stopped her from cutting.