i never posted in here before, but i just feel so low tonight. Today started off good. My mum actually wanted to see me, so she came and picked me up and we went to the pub for lunch and i got to see my two sisters and my little bro. I brought them a toy each as they had a little car boot outside. A barbie for the girl, an action man for the boy and a book for the older one. Then later, we met my boyfriend in the new park in town, and the kids were playing. Mum went to go to the toilet, and cut a long story short this group of chavs started on us and saying all this shit, and my boyfriend went over even though in said no and they starting kicking the shit out of him. I ran over and one was holding my arms behind my back and punching me in the face and the kids were just screaming. Some strangers helped us, but later my older sister said what happened and my mum was screaing at my boyfriend, saying it was all his fault. She said she never wants to see me again because i could of hurt her children. They keep me going thoses kids. Last time she said that i didnt see her for 5 years and i just feel broken. I live for those kids and if they go. i have nothing. I think i have had enough. im too tired to keep fighting. All the shit from the past, and the shit in the future. im tired, and i dont want to keep trying anymore. i cant.