I won't go into the reasons although they are severe anxiety, depression, and rumination of basically the last 10 yrs (I actually could say further back), I am 49. I think I need to break down and get on SSRI's. maybe benzos to get me thru the first 2 weeks, and sleeping pills as I haven't slept any in 4 nights. I don't have insurance or a regular Dr but my wife goes to one she likes that I am sure would put me on whatever I asked for. Should I go to a general Dr or what exactly is the specialist who can put me on these called, a psychiatrist? I don't want to go to a lot of therapy. Also, should I mention that I have suicidal thought? I don't want to be put away or denied medication, although maybe it's best till I feel better but I don't think I will w/out help. Also, scared of needing these for life and another bill but it is better than death I suppose. I am really not thinking straight right now. Thanks.