I can't stand it. I don't want to go into it really, but I can't stand lying. I don't want it anywhere in my life. I can't stand looking someone in the eye and blurring the truth. I can't stand those suddle flat out lies. I can't stand any part of a structure that encompasses a lie. I feel so bad like a guilty failure. I hate it. I hate it so much. There's no venting forgivness for lying, there's no justification for most lying. It's a bastard poison that I have to accept. I spread a happyness built on a lie. Even though the lying is inconsequental.. I cant stand it. I hate it. Another reason I am going to change my life. I can't live like this, lying. Even if it is a weak non-important lie that helps a flow go, I don't want it. I dont want deciet anywhere in my life. I don't want falsity in my life. I don't want IT at all. I will not feel comfortable about this and I never will allow myself to feel comfortable about this. I hate it. And I am so sorry for lying