hey basta. first of all, i have to know: did you make basta your name because it's spanish for "enough"?
Also, I know that right now, death seems like a great answer, but it rarely is. Whatever you're going through can be worked out. Put off dying a little longer and see if you can't get to a better place
Yes, I have thought about it for long time and everything is clear.
Since I have only two aims: 1) to die 2) not to hurt my family,
the only solution is to find a killer who is looking for killing somebody (me!).
"Come to a better resolution than dying."?
Why dying can't be the best one?
"Why do you want to die."?
People want lots of things. Somebody wants to become actor and thinks all day about that; someone else wants to become rich and thinks all time about how to make money; my colleague always wants to play football.
And me, I want to die; I have my aim like other people.
This is not good, not bad. No ethics, no preconceptions, no superstitions.
Just a way to realize myself.