"basta" is italian and the meaning is "stop".
Yes, I have thought about it for long time and everything is clear.
Since I have only two aims: 1) to die 2) not to hurt my family,
the only solution is to find a killer who is looking for killing somebody (me!).
That's mathematic.
"Come to a better resolution than dying."?
Why dying can't be the best one?
"Why do you want to die."?
People want lots of things. Somebody wants to become actor and thinks all day about that; someone else wants to become rich and thinks all time about how to make money; my colleague always wants to play football.
And me, I want to die; I have my aim like other people.
This is not good, not bad. No ethics, no preconceptions, no superstitions.
Just a way to realize myself.