Well last week I tried but held myself back because I was frightened of something to do with the method. Life has been shit for 3 years now and I go back and forth from wanting to live to wanting to die. I can't see myself holding on for longer and the only thing keeping me tied here is my parents, I'd miss them in a heart beat. It only depends upon how much I take in, with what's been going on lately. Not only that I'm on a medication that leaves me with blunted emotions and I can't feel, I tried a new one but that was a mistake caused all sorts of problems. I just can't see myself facing an emotionless life, I can't do it. I have hopes, dreams and aspirations but they'll be gone soon then I'll be back in a void of not feeling again. I know there's many people in my situation like that but I just don't know how they do it.