I've finally decided to go through with it. I am going on a family camping trip this weekend and when I get home I plan to do it. I want to go to a park or something so my husband doesn't find me. My thinking is that I'm going to leave him a long note and then just drive for a while. I'm so tired of feeling like a someone who has no purpose. I don't want to work, I would rather stay at home all day which means I'm not bringing anything to our relationship financially... I'm an emotional wreck most times and wonder what the hell he was smoking when he decided to marry me... I still can't figure that puzzle out. But I want to do this. I'm so tired of pretending to be having a better day and then running to my room to cry. I cry so often nowdays that my eyes are raw. I feel pathetic even writing this because I don't know whats wrong... I have no legitimate reason to be depressed but I have felt this way since I was in Middle school and I'm 22 now. My therapist even said there's nothing wrong with me... I wish she could get a taste of this feeling to know shes wrong because it hurts a lot emotionally and physically hurts in my chest.