I just wanted to find out how many people are able to successfully do this. Because up until recently I thought I was, but looking back over my history I have lost on average about 4 friends a year (stopped talking to them because I couldn't handle being around them/disappeared/slowly just stopped calling or agreeing to meet up, or they have just slowly disappeared/stopped calling/agreeing to meet up or in some of the worst cases we've fallen out - usually due to my insane mood swings and me saying or doing something to piss them off massively). It's really tragic and I cannot believe how I have disintegrated all of these relationships. I know deep down it's to do with me, they couldn't handle being around me and I couldn't handle being around them either. What sort of life am I going to have if people cannot stand my company? Or I can't be around them due to my issues with jealousy and hating being around 'normal' people with their normal happy lives.