does anyone else here suffer from major depression? i mean, it's so bad that you have a hard time even getting out of bed. it stays with me forever. i always feel completely horrible inside. i have no motivation at all to do much of anything. i eat and sleep. i rarely bathe. i dream of how i can kill myself. always feel the pain inside. there is no help for me. i don't have medication. i just keep getting worse and worse.