I honestly don't know if i can make it through the night. the pain is so hard i cant' do it anymore. i have to. i can't. i try. please. please, it's just there and doesn't go away. noone on chat helps. they are angry at me. i don't know why. i don't understand. I'm trying my best to make it through. but my method is just flashing in my mind and the crying that i have to hide from my family. in fear of punishment. pain for pain, endless circles. i'm trying. noone cares. just shit and fucked up. fucked up,. and why don't they give a damn, don't i care. <edit mod total eclipse > i swear it. death and sadness. life is nothing. it's not fair. i'm sorry. but i just need to get through. fucked up. pain pain pain. i can't even think. i can't get help.