as far as the rest of the world is concerned, i might as well be dead. everyone i knew has moved on. i haven't seen people i knew in years. i feel knowing the people i've known has been worth nothing at all, because one day they're gone as swift as you meet them. if i killed myself, so what. everyone i've ever known no longer sees me or hears me. it's like i dont even exist while i'm alive. even when i do kill myself, people i knew won't know. at best years from now some one i once knew will ask or wonder "what happenned to him?". i don't even know or care if whoever asks that question would get the answer that i killed my self. all my life i've just been getting a "taste" of good things. i've had enough of all it. screw all this. god forbid if i get some of the things in life everyone else i've know takes for granted.