Another thread on this board reminded me of this. But my mom, god bless her, really tries to help me but she goes about it the wrong way. She doesn't know Im depressed, I doubt its even a word in her vocabulary, she just thinks I'm shy. Which brings us to the calls. Lately shes been getting all these phone numbers from co workers or family members who know people high up and she asks me to call them to build a relationship. That way when I want a job I can "use that person to get ahead" or "if you need something, they will give it to you because you know them". Now I know this is what many people do everyday, but to me it just seems so wrong even though im suppose to be "making friends". To be nice to someone solely for what they have, and over the phone no less. Id like to at least meet them face to face first so I could feel like im making an actual attempt. This just really bothers me because one of my friends admitted to only making getting to know people she could get stuff from. Well that revelation brought a whole lot of things into perspective, like her borrowing and neediness, which is why we don't talk much anymore. This whole thing leaves a bad taste in my mouth and a cloud in my mind. I use to think my paranoia and mistrust was me being a big baby, then stuff like this happens. I don't know what to do anymore.