• Both the IOS/ Apple Iphone/ Ipad and the Android/Google versions of the sites mobile app are now available for download from the resources page. The app is free for all members. This app will allow you to get notifications on your mobile device whenever a thread or forum you watch has a new post, when your thread or posts get replies, when you recive a private message, etc. The links to download the app are in the resoiurces area - https://www.suicideforum.com/community/resources/categories/example-category.1/

Making real friends on SF

Shannew

Well-Known Member
#61
Hi Belzy welcome to SF :)
I can see that you're going through a really hard time at the moment and I wanted to put in my two cents because I can relate to your way of thinking. Last year I pushed away all my friends and family because I assumed that they didn't love me enough, sometimes because of the most trivial reasons. I also believed everyone is selfish and no-one genuinely cares. I denounced my current relationships as well because I assumed they were all fake and there was no real love. I got into a relationship which although was wonderful at the time, still did not help my suicidal thoughts. So I was stuck in this dystopia where I felt so unhappy. Then the worst thing imaginable happened, the love of my life broke up with me and I had my first attempt at suicide. When it didn't work, I felt the most helpless I had ever felt and I came to this site and someone who barely knew me stayed up with me for hours and hours reassuring me that it wasn't the end, that I deserved to live and that I should safe myself in that moment.. and I did. I ended up contacting some family members (who I thought hated me) and they drove all the way to my house and supported me for the next few days. Comforting me, giving me food and a place to stay and lots of hugs and love. If I had never reached out, I would have never known how much they loved me and now in the first time in years do I feel I have a real family, somewhere that I belong. After that my view on the world changed. I became a lot more forgiving and less cynical. I tried to be less judgemental and try to understand why people do things and accept it instead of criminalising them and pushing them away forever. I made a plan with my only friend at the time to forgive everyone in my past and present and renew my friendships. I promised to myself that I would live a life of hope, gratitude and not of resentment and to focus more on helping people who suffer with suicidal thoughts like I did. I believed that no-one in the world cared about me but someone did that night that I tried to die. It takes a lot of inner strength but I don't feel suicidal anymore. I feel powerful and hopeful and I feel like I have a real purpose. I hope this helped in some way, feel free to message me if you want to talk more about this :)
 

Shannew

Well-Known Member
#62
Hi. I dont really know where to start. I actually came here to this site because i thought it would give me ideas of how to leave this lonely life.
That's what i was googling anyhow. I have been told im a smart person, but yet i dont know how to chanel that into positiveness. Relationships are hard. I have no friends. Only a friend. Have no immediate family around me, other than 2 brothers that live an hour away, and whom one never calls, only when i guess they need something. The other is too busy with work.
Extended family all over seas. So who do i have left? Other than my rship of 5 yrs, which i created because i didnt want to be alone.
I tell myself, no wonder you have no friends. People are nasty. Self righteous people, that think they are better than you so they ignore you. I find social situations quite awkward. They are mostly filled with people from my bfs family, so he has no qualm talking, but i just dont fit in.
dammit forgot to press the reply button xD
 

Kira

Staff member
Safety & Support
SF Supporter
#63
Hi Belzy welcome to SF :)
I can see that you're going through a really hard time at the moment and I wanted to put in my two cents because I can relate to your way of thinking. Last year I pushed away all my friends and family because I assumed that they didn't love me enough, sometimes because of the most trivial reasons. I also believed everyone is selfish and no-one genuinely cares. I denounced my current relationships as well because I assumed they were all fake and there was no real love. I got into a relationship which although was wonderful at the time, still did not help my suicidal thoughts. So I was stuck in this dystopia where I felt so unhappy. Then the worst thing imaginable happened, the love of my life broke up with me and I had my first attempt at suicide. When it didn't work, I felt the most helpless I had ever felt and I came to this site and someone who barely knew me stayed up with me for hours and hours reassuring me that it wasn't the end, that I deserved to live and that I should safe myself in that moment.. and I did. I ended up contacting some family members (who I thought hated me) and they drove all the way to my house and supported me for the next few days. Comforting me, giving me food and a place to stay and lots of hugs and love. If I had never reached out, I would have never known how much they loved me and now in the first time in years do I feel I have a real family, somewhere that I belong. After that my view on the world changed. I became a lot more forgiving and less cynical. I tried to be less judgemental and try to understand why people do things and accept it instead of criminalising them and pushing them away forever. I made a plan with my only friend at the time to forgive everyone in my past and present and renew my friendships. I promised to myself that I would live a life of hope, gratitude and not of resentment and to focus more on helping people who suffer with suicidal thoughts like I did. I believed that no-one in the world cared about me but someone did that night that I tried to die. It takes a lot of inner strength but I don't feel suicidal anymore. I feel powerful and hopeful and I feel like I have a real purpose. I hope this helped in some way, feel free to message me if you want to talk more about this :)
This made me so happy to read! You've come a long way @Shannew and you are a blessing and great friend on this site! Have you seen the "What SF has meant to me project" that is getting underway? What you just wrote is a perfect testament to the whole theme! Check it out in Forum News and Updates and if you'd feel comfortable sharing, I think that we be awesome! Take care *hug ox
 

Karmitkurmit

King of the Hedge
SF Supporter
#64
Just found this thread. What a wonderful idea Shannew and it's nice to see the thread has been going so long.

I'm not entirly sure how it works, but I'm in! As long as you don't mind staring at a hedgehog for long periods of time, don't mind me waffling occasionaly when all you asked was what the weather's like where I am, and don't have an issue conversing with someone who put all his marbles in a bag with a hole in it....then I'm ready and waiting to take up the role of friend to anyone who needs it!

Love this family and it's original thinking! :)
 
#65
Hi Belzy welcome to SF :)
I can see that you're going through a really hard time at the moment and I wanted to put in my two cents because I can relate to your way of thinking. Last year I pushed away all my friends and family because I assumed that they didn't love me enough, sometimes because of the most trivial reasons. I also believed everyone is selfish and no-one genuinely cares. I denounced my current relationships as well because I assumed they were all fake and there was no real love. I got into a relationship which although was wonderful at the time, still did not help my suicidal thoughts. So I was stuck in this dystopia where I felt so unhappy. Then the worst thing imaginable happened, the love of my life broke up with me and I had my first attempt at suicide. When it didn't work, I felt the most helpless I had ever felt and I came to this site and someone who barely knew me stayed up with me for hours and hours reassuring me that it wasn't the end, that I deserved to live and that I should safe myself in that moment.. and I did. I ended up contacting some family members (who I thought hated me) and they drove all the way to my house and supported me for the next few days. Comforting me, giving me food and a place to stay and lots of hugs and love. If I had never reached out, I would have never known how much they loved me and now in the first time in years do I feel I have a real family, somewhere that I belong. After that my view on the world changed. I became a lot more forgiving and less cynical. I tried to be less judgemental and try to understand why people do things and accept it instead of criminalising them and pushing them away forever. I made a plan with my only friend at the time to forgive everyone in my past and present and renew my friendships. I promised to myself that I would live a life of hope, gratitude and not of resentment and to focus more on helping people who suffer with suicidal thoughts like I did. I believed that no-one in the world cared about me but someone did that night that I tried to die. It takes a lot of inner strength but I don't feel suicidal anymore. I feel powerful and hopeful and I feel like I have a real purpose. I hope this helped in some way, feel free to message me if you want to talk more about this :)
Thankyou.
You have a powerful story. As similar as both our stories may be, they are quite worlds apart.
My brothers.. well they literally all the family i have. Parents gone. Extended family overseas and hardly talk to other than on Fb.
Friends..never really had any. Bullied at school. Made a career for myself. But even with all the skills i have, people dont take me seriously. So why bother. Life is easier as a kid. I understand why so many adults cant take it anymore.
So i dont really have any relationships to repair as there were never really any to begin with. And new ones are hard to come by..or find.
 
#66
Of course, this is very nice. Im skeptical about trusting others since im usually let down by high expectations or miss interpretation by some kind.
I'm in the idea for looking for friends :)
 

Walker

Everything Zen
Staff member
ADMIN
SF Social Media
SF Supporter
#67
I feel like we all feel very similarly, @Thusspoke42 So don't trip. Just hang around a while, see who you click with and feel your way around. You'll be flapping about in no time. :)
 

Woowoo

SF Pro
SF Artist
SF Supporter
#68
Hey I've just found this thread and I think it's a great idea. I've met some lovely people on chat but there are lots of people on this thread that i haven't met yet. I hope I can make some real friends here.
@Shannew I've just read your story above- it's really lovely and brought tears to my eyes. I hope one day I can have your positivity.
 
#69
I don't know anymore what's to have real good friends. I had and have some really bad experiences with wrong relationships and don't know if i can take it. Like someone sad before I don't trust on people and just feel that no one genuinely loves and cares about me, even my parents.
 

Shannew

Well-Known Member
#70
Thankyou.
You have a powerful story. As similar as both our stories may be, they are quite worlds apart.
My brothers.. well they literally all the family i have. Parents gone. Extended family overseas and hardly talk to other than on Fb.
Friends..never really had any. Bullied at school. Made a career for myself. But even with all the skills i have, people dont take me seriously. So why bother. Life is easier as a kid. I understand why so many adults cant take it anymore.
So i dont really have any relationships to repair as there were never really any to begin with. And new ones are hard to come by..or find.
I think that understanding about how life can be very hard is so valuable in our recovery. Its like discovering a vital piece of information we didn't know before and now we can accept the fact and use that fact to adjust our lives accordingly. So its really good that you have come to that conclusion but that isn't the end, its a new beginning. I used to think exactly like that too and that thinking was heavily backed up by so much evidence of people in my life being assholes. But I had a feeling that there was more to this. There HAD to be a way to be happy in this life because even though so many people are depressed there are so many more people who are leading happy lives. For every 1 suicide there are 300 people who have felt suicidal and recovered. Anyway, I didn't want to be in that god awful place where I was when I attempted so I forced myself to be hopeful, positive and forgiving. Even putting the simple thought of "life can get better" even though I had no rhyme or reason to believe it and I had no idea how. But eventually things did get better, of course there were hard times along the way but it's been weeks since I've felt depressed let alone suicidal. Things are going so well I honestly can't believe it and it wasnt because of chance it was because I began to change my thinking, take control of my future and be more proactive in every area of my life. I know I have a long way to go still but I'm excited about it now not depressed and scared and overwhelmed. What also helped me was this book called 'The 7 Habits of Highly Effective people' by Stephen Covey. I recommend it highly to everyone in any stage of life. Read it, apply the principles to your life and see if you feel any better?
 

Shannew

Well-Known Member
#71
Hey I've just found this thread and I think it's a great idea. I've met some lovely people on chat but there are lots of people on this thread that i haven't met yet. I hope I can make some real friends here.
@Shannew I've just read your story above- it's really lovely and brought tears to my eyes. I hope one day I can have your positivity.
Aww thank you woowoo <3 <3 <3
You absolutely will!
 

Shannew

Well-Known Member
#72
I don't know anymore what's to have real good friends. I had and have some really bad experiences with wrong relationships and don't know if i can take it. Like someone sad before I don't trust on people and just feel that no one genuinely loves and cares about me, even my parents.
You're strong my friend! Don't let the weaknesses of others control you!
 
#73
Hello, I am Alex, 22 and I live UK, very lonely, have no friends and I suffer from severe social anxiety and agoraphobia, I am passionate about writing, and I would like to get better at art. Would like to meet someone to make friends with.
 

Please Donate to Help Keep SF Running

Total amount
$465.00
Goal
$255.00
Top