A little bit of background first... I am a rather introverted and shy male who recently turned 24 years old. I don't really have a physical self image problem because I know I'm a decent looking guy, but I have yet to have sex or do anything physically intimate with a girl besides random and brief make outs while drunk in college. I have quite a few girls that I'm friends with currently, but nothing beyond platonic relationships. When ever I do decide to open up to someone I'm interested in, I am told that they just want to be friends. They all tell me that I'm awesome and that I will make a great husband for some girl. I then get the whole speal that I'm a great listener, am genuine, am sensitive, and the right girl will come along eventually when you least expect it. On other hand are all my male friends. By this point every single one of my male friends has hooked up with girls, had relationships, and a fair amount of them are even in very long term and serious relationships. At the same time all I hear from guys is about who've they got with, crazy sexual things they've done, how good (or bad) looking the girl they got with is, how awesome high school/college was because of it... ect (although I have guy friends who are more or less extreme, this is generally how it is). The girls i know always seem to complain about guys like this yet those same guys are the ones they get with while I'm left to fall asleep and wake up cold and alone every day. At this point I feel like I've been living life wrong, and that I completely missed out. Although I have a couple girls in my life who will tell me they love me and try to bring up my confidence; I feel, as a guy, that I really need some form of physical intimacy to have a sense of emotional satisfaction in my life when it comes to relationships. I feel at this point, no matter how "awesome" my personality is I will never find a girl who wants to be anything more than a friend to me. From what I've seen from my peers, relationships begin with people finding each other attractive and/or interesting on the surface, then hooking up, and then they either become friends and form a relationship or eventually move on to the next. Because of my shyness I always seem to become too friendly with a girl before I try to make it sexual and that makes going beyond just friends impossible. From my experience, it seems that there is something intangible that makes me unfit, and I will forever be alone (whether that be alone for one night or long term). The reason that I linked depression into the title is not that I feel that my lack of physical intimacy is the reason of my depression... Although I've never experienced such a thing, I feel confident that there are so many more thing to life that can make it happy and fulfilling beyond being physically intimate with another. My main problem (and one of the major reasons I hate myself so much) is that I feel that this complete lack of intimacy is holding me back mentally in so many other aspects of my life. For example, Its almost impossible for me to concentrate on anything career orientated, I wake up and fall asleep every day thinking about past, present, and future failures, I get way too easily emotional and jealous of friends hooking up with each other, I find it very hard to control my drinking and I end up getting too messed up and embarrassing myself, and the list goes on and on. A large reason for all this is because I feel like a lesser human being for failing to be intimate with a girl even though I have no moral or religious objections to doing so. All of this ends up negatively effecting me, my friends, and my family, and that is what hurts the most. I've read all the stories saying that when girls get older they will look for guys who are more caring and attentive, but I don't necessarily know if I want the first girl I hook up with to be someone who is only looking for marriage. I feel like I missed out on a large part of the human experience already. My mind is so racked now that I don't even trust my feelings. I spend 18-20 hours a day just in bed wrapped in blankets cause I just don't know what to do anymore. I cannot afford therapy at this point in my life which is something I know desperately need. I've been considering options such as hiring an escort, killing myself, castration, homosexuality, coming out to all my friends/family about my situation, but all those options seem to have a great deal of negative consequence with with very little positive. I just want to know if anyone has experienced or is experiencing something similar? I would be greatly interested in any feedback or advice especially from guys because I'm really lost at the moment (although any opinion is appreciated, I feel sexuality differs in some very strong key ways between men and women. Feel free to debate me on this though). tl;dr: I'm the typical nice guy who always gets friend zoned. It is very frustrating and is negatively effecting many aspects of my life. I don't know what to do anymore.