*WARNING TRIGGERING* *WARNING TRIGGERING* *WARNING TRIGGERING* You have been warned! Highlight below to see full story. *On a side note, that's not a suicide note. More like five dissertations.* The man who took his own life on Harvard's campus Saturday left a 1,904-page suicide note online. According to the Harvard Crimson, Mitchell Heisman wrote "Suicide Note," while living in an apartment near the school. The note is a "sprawling series of arguments that touch upon historical, religious and nihilist themes," his mother, Lonni Heisman, told the Crimson. She said her son would have wanted people to know about his work. The complex note, divided into four parts, touches on Christianity, the Holocaust and social progress, among other topics, and mentions Harvard several times. IvyGate calls the note "probing, deeply researched, and often humorous." Heisman was 35 when he took his own life on the steps of Harvard's Memorial Church Saturday. He had a bachelor's degree in psychology from the University of Albany. According to the Crimson, he worked in area bookstores and lived on inheritance from his father, who died when he was young. In the note Heisman wrote that he took his life as part of a philosophical exploration he called "an experiment in nihilism." The lengthy document included 1,433 footnotes, a 20-page bibliography, over 1,700 references to God and 200 references to the German philosopher Friedrich Nietzsche. Heisman wrote, "Every word, every thought and every emotion come back to one core problem: life is meaningless... The experiment in nihilism is to seek out and expose every illusion and every myth, wherever it may lead, no matter what, even if it kills us." "If life is truly meaningless and there is no rational basis for choosing among fundamental alternatives, then all choices are equal and there is no fundamental ground for choosing life over death," he wrote. So my question is, Was this an act of desperation, seeking the solace of the church? . . . Was this a statement against religion?