Sometimes it's hard to pin point my emotions. Right now, I want to scream. I want to scream so loud just to be heard. It's like you are standing right in front of me and you don't see it. I haven't budged in how long? Have you not noticed that the lust for everything is gone? The twinkle, that sparkle in my eye is faded. I am broken. I'm sick of being abused. I'm sick of having how I feel continuously shoved in my face. You don't want to see it but you want me to move on. Well,which is it? Ignore me or acknowledge me, but make up your mind. I know I need to go to a doctor. I know I need to get the mania fixed. Being up than down and back again is not working anymore. It's just not working. I know that I won't get many responses to this. I never do. I never will. I know I am not worthy of help from people. After all to many I'm just another person behind a screen and nothing more. Good luck with life ...fuck it.