For years I took ketamine. Both by snorting and injecting. I also binged on copious amounts of MKat for near two years to the point where I lost my mind for a little while. Throughout I smoked weed everyday I also went through phases of LSD, Ecstasy in various forms and cocaine, all the while ketamine, valium and weed staying a daily constant. i turned 18 and after 6 years of heavy drug abuse (I'm not exaggerating all day everyday,) I got pregnant and stopped everything dead, I then went to prison whilst pregnant, came out gave birth and have played perfect mother for 2 years. I still feel severely depressed, yet now I do nothing to alleviate my feelings I just carry on pretending as such, I love my daughter dearly. But I hate life. Has anyone else stopped everything "cleaned-up" their act and still feel down years later and on the brink of going off the rails?