I'm a recovering alcoholic, I haven't drank in 3 years. But I have a much harder time kicking marijuana. I just got sober again and I'm gonna stay sober for a while. I have a decent job making $15 an hour but I have no idea how to raise my income. I loathe colleges so don't even go there. I'm almost 30 and live with my mom which is frowned upon but honestly barely bothers me. I have no future. Recently I lost all interest in women which is a liberating feeling as pursuing girls causes so much undue stress! So my long term plan is definitely suicide. I don't plan on living past 50. I still think there's a few things to live for: watch some sports, see if Donald Trump gets elected... and before I <mod edit - methods> I would get a vaporizer and pounds of marijuana and commit myself to videogames. I also like to play guitar and lift weights. I'll always be a loner but I love it! When all is said and done, suicide seems like the natural end for a person like me.