I'm married with young children, however the relationship between myself and my wife has degraded to the point of no return. Today she has been texting me (while I'm at work) really quite damaging messages, that confirm from her perspective, our marriage is finished and she doesn't see me as a husband or role model father to our children any more - the oldest being just 4yrs old! I don't smoke, drink, or really have much of a social network of friends (plus family live some 350 miles away) - Ive been totally devoted to my wife + children. Plus I work a full time job, that pretty much keeps us all going financially. I live for my children, they have been what's kept me going through all the negativity of our marriage recently. It cuts me up inside coming home from work each evening now and seeing the joy and love I receive from my children, running up to me shouting "Daddy" as I walk in the door - knowing soon I could be out of their lives forever (but they wont understand this at their young age). My wife is foreign and if we do split, will be running straight back to her native country and take our children with her. Several thousand miles away. Her family also fully support her and would see me out of the picture as actually a Plus, in addition to having the children living with them (in their native country) permanently - to be honest its because of the 'In Laws', where alot of the conflict between my wife and I, has originated. A few years ago (before our children came along) I took an overdose, but was probably more a call for help, due to the abuse that was going on in our relationship at that time. I was pretty depressed. Now, the relationship looks like its going to end and obviously theres so much more to lose this time - my children! Plus I feel totally helpless as it doesn't matter how much I have tried to turn things around, its as if she just hates me constantly - frequently verbally putting me down. I'm close to ending my life, I'm feeling it could happen any day now, I've had suicidal thoughts for months (due to this abusive relationship) and am mentally prepared for this - this time WONT be a call for help. I know how I'm going to go, plus have prepared the "equipment" in my car, so could drive off and in 30 minutes the job would be done! I dont suspect she's having an affair or another interest (at THIS time), but if I was to learn that was the case, I'd be certain my role as husband plus father to my amazing children was about to end, and my fate would be sealed.