Well I've recently been going through some tough times myself. I'm also a masochist but have really done a good job at resisting the urge to cut and such. Anyway I also recently have taken up martial arts and want to suggest that as a healthy alternative to cutting. I have found it has helped me get into better shape. You can let out your anger safely until you are tired out. It's also great when practicing as sometimes you get a punch or elbow to the face accidentally. Everyone always apologizes when it happens but I'm always thankful for the realism.