This topic might belong somewhere else, I don't know. I am feeling suicidal, but that's a given right now, and everyone here knows how it is. There's no way to explain it better than somebody else has before, it's all the same. I'm just trying to get right to the point and ask for comfort. For the past hour I've been crumpled up on the couch I use as a bed, worrying about my relationship with my girlfriend again, crying over it. A brief moment of motivation made me decide to get up and ask someone about it here. She recently messed up her birth control. It was her decision that nothing we do be changed, that a month was too long to wait. So that's fine, I honestly couldn't care less either way at this point. Last night, after about two weeks of nothing being changed, she started talking about what if she got pregnant. She said she'd have to get an abortion, that she'd be really depressed, and that she wouldn't know if she'd want to be with me anymore. She says she wouldn't be able to look at me the same anymore. This is the longest relationship I've been in. She's told me she wants to be with me throughout college and beyond that, that she loves me. And she's not some ditz, I respect her enough to know that that has meaning coming from her. I just can't understand why she'd rather go through that alone than with me by her side. It's not that I'm worried it's going to happen, the stance she takes on the subject is just so disturbing to me. It's like rather than work through any serious problem with me, she'd rather it become the end of us, which makes me feel like she considers me very temporary, and it hurts. The opinion I was looking for: I want to know if this is a common sentiment among women, if something like that is a natural destroyer of relationships. It seems to me like most people would want their partner there with them to go through that, but I don't know. I sure would. Any thoughts would be great, but please don't say something just to comfort me, I'm looking for the truth. I'm only 18 and she's 17 by the way, if that makes any difference. We're both very mature people though, we've been through more than most people go through in a lifetime. Thanks for reading.