Hi, I'm Maura. I am here to force myself out of a vicious circle of withdrawing, because I know where it leads to if I don't stop it now. Signing up for this forum was the only way I still managed to reach out in a way. So writing this post is a challenge in itself. I hope that by reading other people's posts, I'm triggered to reach out, to try and support someone else. I think that's what could help me, eventually. I'm very grateful that this forum exists, and to everyone out there struggling: my thoughts go out to you.