Well, I have to admit that I'm not quite honest with anybody, ANYBODY. I make lies all the time about my feelings because I don't like people knowing how I truly feel. Lately I know that what's been bothering me has been getting in the way of my work performance, and I've just lost all my motivation. I've become lazy and whenever I wake up late for work I don't even go. Yesterday I got a call from my manager that if I miss work one more day she's going to terminate me. I know it's my fault, and I should get my act together. There's no excuses when it comes to the workforce I suppose, but I really don't feel like working anymore, I don't even go to college or look into anything, all I do is waste my time on the computer playing online games to get my mind off of my current life. I should be doing something about this but it's hard for me to take that first step, honestly thinking about something and doing it are two different things, it's not something I can do anymore on my own. After losing someone special to me, it all just fell apart. And here I am suffering from it because I can't get over it, it's been a year now and I'm still feeling the same way as I used to. What should I be doing with my life right now? I wanted to get a degree in forensics but now I don't even want to go to school. I feel so lost in this world.