This may sound contradictory, and I may not express myself right. I have been posting all week. Just found the site. I don't feel any better really. Still depressed, still lonely, still hurting, still think about it constantly. But thanks to you you who have replied, and maybe even those who have viewed, I feel alittle further from the edge. Nothing in my life has gotten better, but I will keep posting. Maybe just getting it out in a place where i will not be criticized for doing so can help. So I will be posting quite often. You may get tired of seeing my screen name, but as long as it is doing something I will be here.