im so fucking triggered rite now....have been today but telling my only source of professional help to go away and finding out that moms testimony for nhoh is gone and having to write to them and ask for a copy then that fucking post by fucking father whatever...sitting her shaking from head to toe wishing i could self harm to stop it...wishing that i could just fucking jump off a cliff and be with mom....i dunno maybe id be better off dead like i want to be :blub: