Exams for university starting in about 2 days and I'm already certain I'm going to fail. It's just too much and it's pointless to even try anymore. I also have no one to fall back on, no friends, no support from parents and my brother is just annoying and unhelpful. So much is at stake but I can't handle it. This was supposed to be my only chance for university education but if I fail, my parents won't support me financially anymore. I understand their point of view and I could try to get a job but I'm so socially inept and awkard, I don't even know how to start. I guess I need to grow a pair but it's just too much for me. I'm scared of my future. The fact that every dream of mine is about death or the afterlife in some way for about 2 weeks doesn't make it easier, it just confuses me even more. I like to read books in my spare time but that's just escaping reality, it doesn't help one bit.