I used to have alot of thoughts of hurting maybe killing myself. But I never did have the galls to do it,. Cause ever since I was little I have been so unaccepted in the family. They never have wanted to give me credit for crap. I even was hardly noticed at my dad's funeral. And all of this is mainly cause of my disability. You see they are a bunch of glory hounds, and cause I will not achieve much in my life mostly due to money, and plain ignorance, they hardly accept me at all. It hurts me alot. Its for all this reason, that I only give my friends the time of day. My family can go to hell.