I'm at the point now where I can't even believe I'm forcing myself out of bed in the morning. Many of you know I suffer from chronic migraine headaches (5 years in total, but this past ache has not gone away for over 4 months. Not one day without pain in my head), but I'm also struggling with progressing scoliosis (which also causes my legs to hurt due to the brace pushing on a nerve), tarsals coalition in my ankles, joint pains in my knees and jaw, ear aches, constantly feeling exhausted, and of course all the migraine side effects like severe nausea, stomach cramps from the medication, dizziness, lack of concentration and more. Oh, and I'm only 15. I'm sorry to complain, but no one else will listen. You don't know how frustrating it is, to have people constantly telling you "just suck it up, it'll get better" when it never does. I am so sick of everyone saying "go to this doctor, take this medication, do this crazy thing" and it never works. It's not getting better, and forcing all of these crazy treatments on me certainly isn't helping. I spent a week in the hospital and ended up getting much worse. No one can figure it out. I am physically and mentally exhausted, with no will to continue on. If I'm this screwed up, maybe I'm just not meant to be alive! Everyone would get over me pretty quickly. There's billions of other people in the world, what's one missing? I went to school for half a day last week because I was so sick. I used to have straight A's, but now have to face failing classes because I just can't keep up. Yes, of course I've talked to the counselors, but any changes they're making are slow and minuscule. I don't like school anymore. In fact, I absolutely dread it. But I can't be home schooled, nor will I drop out for this semester. I'm trying to get as much work done as I can at home, but no one understands how hard it is when you're constantly in pain. I don't know how I'm going to get through this semester though -- and who is going to hire a vet who failed high school? What's the point. Every aspect of my life has already disintegrated. I really don't think it'll get better.