i tried to hang myself on my birthday i wanted to do it soo bad, because i thought that if my younger brother could do it, i could. i was planning to do it where he had done it. so that day was coming up.. and i put the noose so tight that i could feel my pulse and my face was feeling really hot. i got really scared and i started to panic. then i seen my other brothers stash ( he smokes weed ) anyway there was a pair of big scissors. i grabbed them and i eventually cut the cord. i was soo scared and shakey. maybe i dont really want to die. who knows.