I have most every reason to feel good, upbeat, positive even and still there is this nagging sense the other shoe is due to drop any second. The rug is poised to be pulled from beneath my feet. Do I return because it is familiar? Because I gain a false sense of security/safety? Some days I think I should be strong and other days I know it isn't me. I'm not strong and no amount of faking will make it so. I guess I just have to hold on until the light returns and the doubts slink back into their shadows...♥