Sorry if in wrong subforum, read with caution may be triggering not too sure? --- I don't wanna waffle on about my situation again because i've done it a few times and its probably a bit boring to read so i'll spare it. Everythings abit messed up at the moment - depression and just real intense thoughts, I see my psychologist through CMHT once a week but he's away alot now and again...which doesn't help but I deal with it as i'm kinda grateful. He's been away for the last 2 weeks so I haven't really had the chance to talk. I'm seeing him however next week Wednesday but i'm considering not going at the same time.. To the point, a few months ago I was on the brink of trying to end my life properly, I searched high and low for a website for encouragement (cos I need to man the hell up) and suprisingly found one, got some advice from a person on there...which has led to this.. Im not immediately suicidal now - just thoughts here and there, but recently i've made a few decisions in terms of attempting by a certain month if things don't improve. I have a day in mind and I have a method in mind. Its pathetic I know but i'm tired of living what it feels to be a lie..which i've been living for about 3 years now.. I know there people with worse situations out there which is why its so pathetic but bleh. But just wondering the implications say if I was to say it really when it comes to confidentiality? Its not an immediate thing, i've never been to hospital or anything like that, will he be cool with it (in terms of not raising hell) or am I just asking for that to happen by letting him know? If that makes sense. Apologies if my thread is just pure jumble. It probably is. Hopefully I haven't said anything that would be deemed offensive either, I've tried to keep the original post as condensed as possible.