Me Me Me Poor ME

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by slummy, Nov 21, 2010.

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  1. slummy

    slummy Member

    I came here feeling "low" -- obviously, thinking how it would be so "nice" to have all the pain gone, which really amounts to the depression being gone. And anxiety. and panic. I started reading other people's problems, and even wanted to reply. I tried, because I wanted to have something positive to say. But I'm sorry, I don't.

    I need help myself. Sitting here. Can't eat. Can't stay awake, Can't sleep. Can type, yes, but useful thoughts, no. Brokenhearted, again. Don't even want to talk to my friends (the few i have left). Or family. In fact, the family seldom calls, even though they know i'm in the shitter. I wish there was a hug service that one could call -- and maybe they'd bring soup. I'm hungry, but too down to cook. Oh dear f'ing god, please give me a little help.

    I consider suicide often. Daily. Wonder if I have the means. The courage/cowardice. The consideration for those i'd leave behind. Unfortunately, the one who'd deserve to hurt the most is already dead.

    Ack, i wish this would all pass, one way or another.

  2. dazzle11215

    dazzle11215 Staff Alumni

    i'd subscribe to that hug service, if one existed, wouldn't that be great?

    sorry you are so down. are you being treated for depression? with the right combo of meds and therapy your low mood can lift. i've been there, and emerged the other side. it is possible. hang in there.
  3. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    hope you are taking care of yourself okay. call a neighbor call a friend crisis even and talk okay don't stay alone with all this sadness. Can you call anyone they will bring you some soup anything time to reach out for help okay help you need and deserve.
  4. slummy

    slummy Member

    maybe also a (non sexual) spooning service. If I had a money, I'd call an escort just to hug me and curl up with me so i could sleep.
  5. slummy

    slummy Member

    hey! i'm depressed and suicidal. No one wants to hang out with me, duh.

    But, the local crisis line is having a pizza delivered. Which is my miracle for the day. o
  6. KatyKate

    KatyKate Antiquities Friend

    Hey slummy.....welcome to the sorry you are feeling so down, sad and alone. We all know how you are feeling....please reach out to any of us....we are all friendly and supportive....when I first found this site back in September I couldn't carry on and like you had suicidal thoughts on a daily basis....these have passed...but I still get down, and ask myself what its all you are definately not alone. you are welcome to contact me anytime if you would like a private chat...i know hard it is to reach out when you feel so low, but once you have hopefully it will be a positive experience for you. The many friends I have made on here have helped me through some of my darkest please if I can be of any support send me a PM.
    Take care, thinking of you.
    Hugs Kate xx :)
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