hello,
it's me, again.
me, my body. Sorry, no. Not my body. This body.
deformations, curves, hearing aids, duck voice, scars, short stature; who want this ? Not me. And someone. how do I know? Because no one is hiding to point out to me that I have bodily problems. To exploit these complexes, my demons.
Why ? Because I am the little handicapped person on duty who understands nothing.
Talk about a disability, I'm only hearing impaired, not brain dead. I understand the mockery, the remarks, the insults, the glares, the harassment.
I was told once "you are too disabled to understand that nobody wants you"
well no precisely, I am not, therefore I had already understood it well, for a long time. But I'm sick of figuring it out. I would like not to be able to understand, to keep smiling despite everything.
Even that I do not know how to smile. even a fake, because of those teeth as aligned as my sentences in English. That is to say, too messy, ugly, not complete, and this jaw that ruins my life.
don't be surprised if I destroy something I don't like.
it's me, again.
me, my body. Sorry, no. Not my body. This body.
deformations, curves, hearing aids, duck voice, scars, short stature; who want this ? Not me. And someone. how do I know? Because no one is hiding to point out to me that I have bodily problems. To exploit these complexes, my demons.
Why ? Because I am the little handicapped person on duty who understands nothing.
Talk about a disability, I'm only hearing impaired, not brain dead. I understand the mockery, the remarks, the insults, the glares, the harassment.
I was told once "you are too disabled to understand that nobody wants you"
well no precisely, I am not, therefore I had already understood it well, for a long time. But I'm sick of figuring it out. I would like not to be able to understand, to keep smiling despite everything.
Even that I do not know how to smile. even a fake, because of those teeth as aligned as my sentences in English. That is to say, too messy, ugly, not complete, and this jaw that ruins my life.
don't be surprised if I destroy something I don't like.