i really don't know whats wrong with me :dry: im tired maybe thats the answer. just tired in so many ways im not suicidal. i just feel resigned to the way things are almost. i feel sad. and weirdly i feel unwanted and unloved. my mind convinces myself (rightly or wrongly) that nobody really wants me and those that say they do - even my husband and family - don't really. husband i KNOW is bound to get fed up with my insecurities at some point. but its all i feel capable of. i simply can not convince myself that anyone would stay with me or be my friend out of choice. i love my family and friends so much but my stupid thought processes ruin so much for me i guess yea - i really do hate myself a lot of the time.