Hi I'm a medical mess. I spoke to my pdoc yesterday telling him that I wasn't sure the generic drug I was put on was doing its job and that I was feeling suicidal and had an episode of crying over really nothing (loneliness and loss of a companion) for many hours and that I hadn't done that in a while. He poo pooed the idea and said to give it some time. Then the gp office called and said that my potassium was too high (I just had blood work done). I researched it and high potassium could result in muscle dysfunction, and an indicator of diabetes. Then I got the rest of the results of the blood work and my cholesterol took a high jump in the "bad area" and blood glucose (an indicator of diabetes again) was well high beyond "normal." So I am going to get a chat about food choices and weight control -something I have been battling the past 15 years on my own. I realize that I could have cancer and/or lots of other medical problems but if I had cancer I would go quietly into that good night forget chemo. Now I have to live with all these problems. Again could be worse. But if I was feeling ok and not suicidal I would be battling this new problem and really I don't care. Maybe I'll cancel the apt with the gp.