You can easily term how you feel so that it does not fall in line with something that would make the doctor (and another in the UK) sign you in to a psychiatric hospital.
For example, if you say you think you will kill yourself it is hard for them not to maybe get you signed into a place that will keep an eye on you for the duration of your episode. Some of these places are badly run in the UK - but if they are then you can expose them.
But if you say, you just feel like dying - but have no suicide plan lined up, they will not be able to do anything. Everyone feels like dying sometimes - or that many of us that its not even unusual.
It is all in how you term things to your doctor. Also, people get nervous when visiting a doctor. This makes it difficult to explain perhaps the most difficult thing to explain - your state of mind. It is best to write down what you need to say - as you will always forget things and miss out important stuff sometimes.
So, if you do not want to go to a psychiatric ward (and I would not also) then make sure you term things to the doc so that it is 'neutral' in that you are not saying you want to commit suicide, just feel like it sometimes.
You can always over emphasise anxiety and maybe guilt, tiredness - instead of saying "I want to die". Of course this is just to help you avoid something you think is not a help.
Ask for therapy or counselling instead. Maybe explain to your doc how you fear going into a psychiatric ward. There are crisis teams for people who sometimes feel suicidal but who are living in the community, keeping a home, but might be visited by the team when they feel they cannot cope.
After all the whole point of helping people would be to help them cope in the community they live in. That said there is a need for psychiatric hospitals - maybe they just need to ran better.
Good luck Carter - I hope these new meds settle in and I'd suggest just watching some TV series or carry on tidying your room.
Try to get exercise, some fresh air and sunshine can work wonders. I missed out today myself and feel worse for it.
Not sleeping is maybe worse than sleeping too much as at least the latter does recharge the batteries. Sleeping too little depends on how old you are and whether your body is maybe one of those that needs little sleep. I could get away with 4 hours sleep when working and catch up Friday, Saturday and Sunday, feeling refreshed on the Monday as I was the only sober one without some tale of hangover woes.
Really, you are best getting a 7 hour sleep per night, which will be enough to keep you on the ball. With depression, too much or too little, or even the right amount won't matter so much. Its not like sleep is a cure for depression - but its well known that sleep deprivation over time will leave you prone to depression and other stuff as your immune system is not working to its best.
Keep with us though and you know you got mates here who will be and are on your side.
Many here have had bad experiences in the place you went to - others maybe felt it was OK for them at the time.
Either way its not for you - so try other things instead and I'm sure we'll be in a better place in a few weeks/months than we are right now!
Keep the faith!
