I had an OK summer. But the second things started to get crazy, I did too. My anxiety is through the roof and my depression all consuming. Things were getting really bad again and my friend got my to go to a clinic tonight. I was soooo nervous. I sat there trying to be relaxed but I was so tense and the doctor didn't want to give me anything. I guess I had a sad/disappointed look on my face when she said this because she said that I was making her feel guilty. So she prescribed me Luvox. This took about 45 minutes of my friend and I sitting and listening to her talk and talk. I know she was just trying to help but I just wanted it to end. I then went to get the prescription filled and I took my blood pressure on one of those machines when I was waiting. Well...I went from always having normal blood pressure to 150 over 90. That was after sitting and going to store and everything. A little stressed...maybe. I get home and my dad is mad because I forgot about a meeting I had with the ICBC guy. It turns out that I might be getting $ 3000. I don't know why. I wasn't hurt or anything and that was over 6 months ago. This does make me happy because that means I can for sure go to Cancun with some people for spring break. I wrote this because I just wanted to tell someone this and I didn't have anyone to tell. I just hope things get better. Since I made that first step I have to follow up and the doctor said that I will most likely get counseling. I just hope it goes better than before. I gave up after about 5 referrals. I also learned that if I need counseling that I can get it better and quicker if I do it through my dads plan. The problem with that is I will have to tell him I need it and we DO NOT talk about that stuff. I really don't want to do that. I will waiting and see.