Ok so I have tried my fair share of meeting new people this year just for the last heck of it. And did that go well for me? Of course not. In fact I would say I have met quite a variety of people, much to kicking myself for knowing already that people are nothing but backstabbing jerks who are self-absorbed and mindless. - Ok now that I have that out I want to get around to the topic of USING PEOPLE. I have a handful of self-righteous bigots who think they are GOD, but they have some sort of knowledge I want. So in order to get this I have to play their card since they have the upper hand. I have to whooo them with compliments and desires, and be this pet they have in order to get them to teach me what they know. It's not pretty. I feel REAL uncomfortable and sometimes to the point of hating myself because I feel like I'm the poor begging for money, which basically I am. I can't find this sort of help anywhere else. Not many are willing to help. Yet BIGOTS sometimes help because well frankly it makes them feel good. Yet in return I have to sacrifice quite a bit....does this make any sense at all? One false move on my part, and they have the upper hand to just tear me to pieces or ignore me....and I can't afford that if they have something I need or want. I know it sounds ridiculous to why not just go find someone else nicer to help out. But BELIEVE ME, there aren't that many people who would stick around to help. My question is, how far should I go to do all this? I mean I feel that I have to because it will help benefit me (in my career). And people have gone far, real far with getting a step up in life. How far would you go???? This is driving me crazy because WHY are people so cruel?! I'm not the type to use people or be used! I wish it was more of a natural thing. I'm a very kind person, but I don't knock people down and call them names knowing they will want me in the end anyway. Yet these people do this?! Explain this to me!