Why is it so hard to let go of the past? Why is it so hard to believe not everyone in your life is going to give up on you? Why do you feel everyone in your life is going to just leave you to go through everything on your own again. Because one of THE only people out of four you trust tells you so, they tell you that everyone is just going to get up and leave you, give up on you. Why wouldn't they? Your a whore,slag,bitch,fuck-up,burden,useless,fat,ugly,emo (the list goes on..) They tell you not to trust anyone.. You trusted this one person among others and now they have told you not to trust anyone? Does that mean your not supposed to trust the people you already trust? This is where the paranoia sets in that everyone will give up leave you, like in the past or worse turn on you in the past. I can't go through the past again, I CAN'T I WONT! I wont let that one person destroy my trust and hope in the other people.. but ugh the paranoia could. I need help, I need shooting. Mmm..I'm Fine.