hi. sorry im new and this isnt really a great way to start but im running out of hope. no wait ran out of hope. yet am still here. why. i dont know. sick of feeling like sh*t all the time and of getting to the end of a day like its a big achievement then another one starts and waking up every morning wishing i just hadnt. sorry just need to get this out although now ive tried its turning out to be hard. ive kind of run out of people who havent given up on me. i dont know i dont know how to say how i feel anymore. sorry this has turned into a pointless post.