I am feeling more and more trapped, and cornered, every day. Working is very difficult. I'm really trying but I find it really hard to cope with other people and it uses up most of my energy trying to make them think that I can. Social anxiety. Fucking disaster. I'm so resentful of my bad luck to end up with this horrile affliction. I know it could be worse, but it could be better too. Stressed to the max today. Can't see a future, can't think of anything good.