I have been away from the forum for a very long time and tonight I am feeling as if I could go either way right now. I do want to live but sometimes life is just too much. Something happened and I am not sure which way my life is going to go right now so I am going to ramble on until I start to feel better. I am trying to be positive. I was recently given "The Secret" and I started to listen to it last night and I was very moved by it and then today something pretty rotten happened and I feel myself starting to slide downhill again. I don't know if anyone that may read my ramblings, has read or listened to "The Secret" but it makes so much sense. I am not going to go outside right now and blow my brains out but I gave some thought about maybe doing it in the future if things didn't work out and I am a bit ashamed of myself for thinking of giving in. I am a nice person and I don't think that I deserve all the crap that has come my way but then again neither have any of you so what gives me the right to complain and whine?? I guess I am just trying to put things into perspective by writing them down and thinking through all the muck. I am only one of so many of us that haven't figured out life yet. I guess I will put another CD in and try and become more positive about my problems.......I have sat here for several minutes debating whether to delete this or not. It isn't like I've said anything worthwhile. So, maybe I will submit this with the question, " Has anyone read "The Secret" and what do you think???