From my own experience, when the memories come back, I believe its because a part of you is processing it out. I spent a few months feeling exactly like what you are describing. I ended up doing a lot of research on my physical involuntary reactions as well as psychological articles dealing with abuse. Myself, I have had to admit its effect on me and confront it. Its lessened quite a bit, but I know its probably not over. The thing is, you do not deserve anymore pain, SH does not counter the feeling, in the end it ends up feeding it more. It will cause more anxiety on top of the excisting anxiety. If you want to talk, please feel free to send me a message whenever, I log in at least once a day and I will respond. I am not an expert at all but i know exactly what you're describing and my heart hurts for you. Please be kind to yourself.