For the past couple of months I have been having flashbacks, nightmares, and memories from my childhood. I do have a counselor and we are working on it. I don't know what to do though. It is all so intense. I can't find a support group and I can't afford enough support. there just isn't enough support in the world. Besides lack of sleep, I have to deal with being a phd student and running a farm and pretend that I am okay to everyone. like these memories are not the ONLY thing I ever think about all day long... Words of wisdom from those who have been there would be greatly appreciated. I am in a pretty bad space.